What your partner did was not honest – especially if that’s something you asked him to do. Consent is about communication, trust and respect – and it’s important to get consent in every situation – whether it’s agreeing to sexual activity, or agreeing to use a condom.
Your experiences and feelings are yours and yours only. Just know that the feelings you have about what happened matter.
It might make you feel better to talk with someone you are close with or trust – like a doctor, friend or teacher.
Hope this helps.